Thursday, August 21, 2014

Vacation Days- NJ State Fair

Brian and I try to make it to the NJ State Fair each year. It's pretty ridiculous to me because neither one of us go on any of the death trap carni rides. We don't watch any of the derby shows or the auctions. Mostly we go to pig out of deliciously bad for you carnival food. So we pretty much pay to get in to eat. Such a waste of money but hey, you only live once, right?!?

While I was on vacation Brian took a day off to spend with us so we attempted the fair. This time we were $ smart and went before noon to save soe cash. We subjected Jack to some of Sussex County's finest. I mean that with LOTS of sarcasm. This summer has been unseasonably cool here in NJ except for this day. It was sweltering at the fair. We were all so sweaty it was tough to enjoy ourselves.

Jack loves animals so we made sure we visited all the horses, cows and even a few angry ostriches from local farms. It was against my better judgement but we also went to see the "petting zoo" animals because we had heard about a giraffe and I didn't really believe it. I'm not into keeping animals for profit or attraction so it really didn't sit right with me. I actually felt guilty for bringing Jack to see them.

Our little guy LOVED the equestrian show too. We happened upon it on accident. It was the only shady section of the fair grounds.  Jack would squeal with excitement every time a horse would pass. We finally couldn't take the heat any longer so we grabbed some, terrible for you but delicious gyros and fried oreos and called it a day!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Vacation Days- New Jersey Botanical Gardens

On the 3rd day of my vacation we were finally together as a family of three. We started our day at church. We have found ourselves a new church that we would like to raise our son in. (I grew up Catholic but have not been practicing in years.) We love it and have decided to Baptize Jack there in the fall. It is the most welcoming community and we feel lucky.

After church our family took a trip to The New Jersey Botanical Gardens at Skylands Manor. It was gorgeous. The grounds were amazing.  They are filled with 96 acres of formal gardens  and surrounded by 1000 acres of woodlands. They are filled with all types of gardens including hosta, wildflower and annual gardens which were all in bloom during our visit. Although we only saw some of their late summer blooms the grounds are filled wit amazing blooms like the peony, lilac gardens as well as magnolia and crab apple trees.

 The Skylands Manor is also located on the grounds. We did not take a tour inside it was beautiful.  It was built in the mid 1920s and I could totally picture Great Gatsby-like parties taking place here. They continue to host weddings and events. My husband even sang here with his high school choir.

It was a perfect day. We had such a nice time. Jack is always such a happy boy when we go places. It has been such a pleasure introducing Jack to new experiences. Although he may not remember all of these times it is so nice for us to make memories as a family.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Vacation Days- Part 2 Movie In The Park

I love the summer for so many reasons. This summer is even more important than most because it is our first one with Jack. We want to share as many adventures as we can in the last few weeks of the summer sun. I will admit we have jam packed most of our weekends.

While we were on vacation we tried out Movies in the Park. Its a free event that takes place every Saturday in August. We didn't even know what we were going to see but it really didn't matter. The little We figured we would have a little boy who would sleep through the majority of the movie. Guess again because Jack is so much of a social butterfly he couldn't get enough of the movie and all the big kids playing. We laid out a blanket, cuddled up as a family of 3. The Lego movie was pretty fun. Jack loved to music and all the bright colors. Mommy and daddy had a great time too. I mean a free movie and all the concessions were $.50!!! Totally worth it! It's the special moments like these that make simple moments so great.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Baby Jack 7 Months Old

Weight and Height- 
Jack now weighs 15.4 and is 26 inches long!  He's still wearing lots of 3-6 month clothes. He is still small for his age and I'm hoping he puts on some weight now he is onto solids. 

Jack continues to go back to his group of specialists. We continue his nebulizer and percussion therapies 2 times a day.  He is feeling good lately! You would never even know he has cystic fibrosis. He will be getting some blood work, another sweat test and chest x-rays next month. 

Jack hasn't gotten into a pattern yet. One week he will be up 3 times a night and the next week he will be sleeping for 6+ hours. We are back to waking up 2-4 times a night this week... Pass me some caffeine!

Jack barely cries.He is such a happy little boy. He has started crying in the car.  When he can't see me it gets him upset. If I give him my hand he will usually calm down and fall asleep. 

It's growing so well and it is getting lighter. 
I still think he may be a strawberry blonde.

A gray Blue! 

Jack is wearing 6 months. He also fits into some 0-3 onsies, crazy! I notice his one piece pjs are getting a little small, length wise. 

Jack is nursing whenever he is with me. He only seems to nurse for a very short time and I feel like I'm always feeding him. I pump all day at work. He takes 7-8 oz bottles every 4 hours. He has also started solids and it has not been easy. We are making very slow progress. He has a strange gag reflex. If something touches his tongue its puke time. So gross! He really enjoys bananas and yellow squash. He has tried carrots, sweet potatoes, plums, and zucchini. 

We have one down. Most days start at 5am. We begin with this treatments and follow that up with a feeding. Our nights usually contain another treatment and feedings. We all go to bed around 11pm.  

He is so incredibly happy and friendly. He is such a flirt its crazy! He smiles at any pretty girl. He loves watching older kids too.  Jack reacts to people he is familiar with and its usually a huge smile. He is now interested in his cousins and smiles at them when they play. He is so friendly with my best friend's little boy. They laugh and smile all the time when they are together. 

He LOVES being in the water to swim and take baths. 
Jack love dogs. He squeals with excitement when he sees them. 
He loves pretty girls too. He is very flirtatious.  I've got trouble on my hands. 
Jack loves to imitate others. He will cough and giggle when he hears others. 
He is obsessed with phones, iPads and remote controls. 
Jack loves his Fisher Price musical push toy. 
Family- He loves his grandmas and grandpas. He always smiles at mommy and laughs when daddy makes funny faces. 
Cartoons especially Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. 

Jack loved his first adventure swinging. 

Solid food
Car rides
Being in a different room than his mom and dad

Is exhausted all the time. I'm having a tough time. I feel like I have finally hit the wall and I'm tired all the time no matter how many hours of sleep I get. I still hate being at work. Every hour I'm away from him I wish I was with Jack. I want to experience so much with him and I just feel like I'm missing a lot when I'm away. I'm sure most working moms feel the same way.   
Kisses from his furry brother. 

Monday, August 11, 2014

Vacation Days

The first day of our vacation Jack and I were pretty low key. My mom had just been released from the hospital the night before so we were sure we wanted to visit. My mom has been sick since October. She has suffered greatly with allergic reactions and stomach issues. Her body has taken a beating especially since February. Thankfully the doctors believe they know what is wrong and she should be ok as long as she follows a very strict diet.

Jack and I made our way over to grandma's house shortly after we hit up Carters. We have a 1st birthday party to go to this weekend and since it's for a little girl I couldn't resist picking up some girlie goodies. I don't mind shopping for my little boy but clothes for girls are just so darn cute! I got my hands on a few outfits for the birthday girl  (here, here, )and of course I just had to pick up some adorable stuff for Jack. (here, here, here, here) I can't help myself in that store. Those are only some of the goodies I picked up.

After Carters and a visit with mom Jack we met my cousin for dinner. Jack was a total ham and flirted with all of pretty waitresses and customers. It's getting out of hand. My little boy is such a flirt. I swear that everywhere I go some one if not more than one stop to talk to my little flirt. He's such a good boy and always happy I guess people have a hard time not chatting with him. After dinner the 2 of us hung out on our little bridge in town and watched the ducks swim while listening to some live music in town.

On day 2 of vacation Jack and I woke up super early. Jack hasn't been waking up at night like he used too but the 5 am wake up is tough. We did lots of chores and took a nice early walk. Jack's new favorite thing are walks because he is completely obsessed with dogs and in his carriage he is at dog level. He met the new neighborhood Golden Retriever, Bailey. Bailey is a beast but loves kids. He came right up to us. Licked Jack all over and stole one of hit toys. Jack thought it was hysterical. 

 After our walk we went to our local Farmer's Market. Since making Jack's baby food I've been trying to find the freshest, most organic, and local products. Our market is fantastic. There are over 25 booths and so much to chose from. I even treated myself to a crepe filled with lemon curd and fresh from the market blueberries 

The market is only about a mile from our wedding venue. I took a walk over and sat at the boardwalk. I took pictures of Jack were some of our wedding pictures were taken. I just adore that our life has become full circle. 

We did a little shopping for grandma's birthday at my new favorite store, Shelter Vintage and promptly went home for a nap in order to gear up for movie night in the park. 

More on our vacation coming up soon. 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

I've Got The Post Vaca Blues

Wouldn't it be nice if it were that easy? 

Today marks the end of my mini stay-cation. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad. Although it was short I did get to spend 6 days with my little man. We did lots of little things and I had a great time just being with him. I sometimes think I don't have much in the way of postpartum depression but on mornings like this when I say goodbye to my son I feel awful. There is a pit in my stomach and a lump in my throat. Is it postpartum? Is it separation anxiety or is it just normal? I haven't spent more than 3 times in a social setting with out Jack and I don't really have a desire to. Since having Jack I hate going to work. I used to love it so much. I found myself spending years taking care of other people's children and now I just want to stay home and take care of my child. I've been back to work for 4 months and I haven't found that it gets any easier. It still sucks everyday. Does this type of feeling go away or does it last forever?

Although I'm sad to be going back to work I have to try and focus on how much fun we had together. We made lots of memories, spent time with family, friends and took Jack to new places. We even got to spend time with my mom who was hospitalized last week. Thankfully she is doing much better and the doctors finally think they know what has been plaguing her since October. I'll break down our week together in the coming days.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Letter To My 20 Year Old Self

I get updates from the site EveryDay Family that always give me a heads up on new baby items, suggestions and some interesting blog posts. Last week I was directed to a blog post on what the author would tell her 20 year old self. It inspired me to think of all the things I would tell myself 14 years ago.

Dear Kristina in 2000, 

There are so many things I want to share with you but first more then anything you should know you are loved. Things get better everyday. It will take a long time but things will turn out just the way you hoped for so don't change or compromise who you are. But remember it will take some time so while you wait please let this letter help you through the drama of being a young adult. Now I know you are rolling your eyes thinking you know everything but just take a moment 

The most important thing I have to share with you is to love your body. 
No a size 10 is not fat! 
You will get heavier and than lighter.
Your weight will always fluctuate but in no way are you fat. 
You have a beautiful, curvy figure. By the time you are 30 you will be wishing for that size 10 and how very perky you are. Love that body you have.  It will give you the greatest gift of a son.
Do not hate it because if you hate yourself no one will respect you. 
People will notice you hate your body and use it against you to take advantage!
People will fall in love with your heart and passion.
When you grow up the man you always wished for will fall in love with who you are inside. 
He will love you for your passion and your good heart.
While we are on the subject of him, get used to falling asleep early, no more 3am bedtimes with him, get used to fruit in your stuffing, yuck, learn accept the Star Trek thing; yes even the Christmas ornaments

Have FUN. 
Enjoy yourself. 
Take vacations
Wear sunscreen because you're Irish... You don't tan!
Spend time with friends. 
Stay out late. 
Don't shop to much!
Spend time with your parents. 
Try and build a good relationship with your brother. 
Save your money!

Do not mistake sex for love. 
Respect yourself and others will too.
Stop looking for love in all the wrong places. 
It will happen with no strings attached. 
You will fall in love. 
Your heart will break and you will break some hearts too. 
It hurts but it gets better as the time goes on. 

That boy you have a crush on...TELL HIM
Don't hide it and pretent to just be friends.
Let him know how he makes you smile and write in your journal about him.
Show him you love him because he will suddenly be taken from us all way to soon. 
You will always regret not telling him.

In a few years you will meet a man
He is not "The One"
Run in the opposite direction!
He may look like a night in shining armour but he is not.
Good person but not a good boyfriend. 
He will walk out on you when you need him most.

That Billabong hoodie and Delia's boots are NOT SEXY! 
Throw them away sooner not later!

Your high school best friend will be there for everything. She will even bring you a bagel an hour after you deliver your son because she knows you'll be hungry!

Stop smoking before you can't run with out weezing and before they are $8 a pack. 
Stop saying the F word in front of people. 
Its not cool. 
People think its trashy. 
Don't ever pretend to be drunk. Everyone always knows!
Go to your high school reunion! You will regret that too.
NEVER drink beer followed by Long Island Iced Teas, EVER! 
You will sleep on bathroom floor and massive hang over. 

In closing all I can say is be HAPPY. We have made mistakes and we will make more but everything works in some crazy way. 
Continue to care and love like you do. 
Don't let the world harden your feelings. 
Love who you are and all who love you.

You are loved, 
Kristina 2014