Friday, September 4, 2015

Anybody Out There?!?!

Well, I have officially been out of the blog loop for just over 2 months. I haven't written a post and I haven't even read a blog in months. In all actuality it was unintentional but I also feel like it was a godsend. In the 2 months I've been away from the blog world I realized what blogging was doing to me. I got caught up in the stress of feeling as if blogging was another job in addition to my full time job and being Jack's mommy. I also found myself getting stuck in the world of comparison. The blog world is a such a pretty and perfect place and it reminded me of my not so pretty and imperfect life. It started to get me me down. The break was a good thing. I was able to focus on a lot of other things with my down time and there was less pressure. That is always a good thing. With all of that being said I don't necessarily want to quit blogging. I think I am just going to no take it too seriously anymore. I did miss following several of my favorite ladies. I will most likely catch up their lives here and there. In the meantime, for those of you who still follow along I can offer a few updates on what has taken place this summer.

First off, Jack is doing pretty amazing. His health is excellent. He is a ball of energy and never stops! Not even to sleep at night! We are still struggling with getting Jack to sleep in his own bed. We set up his toddler bed in hopes it would get better but not so much. Jack loves to read, take walks, he is super social and just loves his dogs, cousins and friends. Jack has already started potty training. He initiated it last week and we couldn't be more proud. He will be 20 months old tomorrow. It is crazy how time flies!

We received terrible news this summer about my beloved Bogart. In August he started acting very sick. He began collapsing and panting. We rushed him to the hospital and we found out he has a tumor on the side of his heart. It is inoperable. The vet does not believe that chemotherapy would make him better. It may only extend his life 3 extra months. His prognosis is not good and he may only live another 2 or 3 months. It makes me so very sad. He has been with me for so many years. Over the last 12 years he has been with me from college graduation, many boyfriends (even scaring one away), marriage and a baby. He has taught Jack so much in the short time they have spent together and I will be forever grateful for all that he has done. Please keep my little Bogart in your thoughts.

Part of the reason why I found it difficult to blog was because I was having some issues with marriage. It has taken lots of soul searching and work to get us back on track. It will still take more but we are getting there. It's the real world and people have problems but no one really wants to hear about them on blogs and I couldn't stand to be fake so I just avoided it.

In other news; this summer I became an aunt again. I was a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding. I hurt my back terribly and turns out its a herniated disc. I got a different position at work and I am in LOVE with it! My hours are much better and I get to spend lots of time with Jack. I've been able to cook for him and eat dinner with him each night. It's pretty great.

If you're still here and reading, Thank You!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Speak My Love Language

Ever heard of the 5 languages of love? I hadn't until just recently. Basically the languages of love are the things that make your heart sing. Here are a list of the things that make my heart sing!
(Mostly for comedic purposes!)

1. Start the coffee pot before leaving for work.

2. Since we are on the topic of coffee, bring me home one just because.

3. Text me just because.

4. Bring me wine.

5. Ignore the fact that I stutter or forget what I'm saying when I get nervous.

6. Ask me if I want to go shopping. During said shopping trip don't look miserable.

7. Occasionally drop F-bombs. In the appropriate location of course!

8. Change the toilet paper, paper towel roll when you finish it! Don't just lay a new role on top of holder!

9. Don't "almost" eat the last of everything and don't leave an empty container in the pantry.

10. Let me have control of Netflix for a little while, or a whole weekend...

What are your the things that make your heart sing, comical and heartfelt?

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Team Super Jack 2015

Last weekend we spent time as a family to support our little Super Jack a the Great Strides walk for Cystic Fibrosis. This was the second year we did some fundraising and walked to support people living with CF.

If your new around these parts our son Jack was diagnosed at 2 weeks with Cystic Fibrosis. This isn't the path we expected to walk with our son but we would do anything and everything to support our son.

"Cystic fibrosis (CF) is a life-threatening genetic disease that primarily affects the lungs and digestive system. An estimated 30,000 children and adults in the United States (70,000 worldwide) have CF.
In people with CF, a defective gene and its protein product cause the body to produce unusually thick, sticky mucus that clogs the lungs and leads to life-threatening lung infection and obstructs the pancreas and stops natural enzymes from helping the body break down food and absorb vital nutrients.

In the 1950s, few children with CF lived to attend elementary school. Since then, tremendous progress in understanding and treating CF has led to dramatic improvements in the length and quality of life for those with CF. Many people with the disease can now expect to live into their 30s, 40s and beyond."

I'm so proud to say we far surpassed our goal of raising $1,500! Thanks to our friends, family and the blogging community for helping us with our fundraising goals.

The morning of the walk was crazy. The weather went from torrential downpours to the sun beaming down on us. Many of the families who have lost loved ones to Cystic Fibrosis thought it was their loved ones smiling down on all of us.

Jack was amazing! He just adores people and crowds so the walk was the perfect place for him to show off. We brought along Jack's wagon with us so he could ride but he wasn't very interested. He wanted to walk and he walked 2 laps around the track equalling a half mile!

Just as the walk ended the skies opened up and it poured. I'm so glad we got to participate and support a cause near and dear to our hearts.

Friday, June 5, 2015

Oh Hey Friday

It's been a while since I've done one of these!


Tonight is the first night I'll sleep away from Jack.
Every night for 17 months I've kissed him goodnight before putting him to bed.
To be honest I'm really sad about him staying with grandma tonight
(I have a bridal shower to set up bright an early tomorrow morning.)


I am SO sick and tired of people trying to sell me their "stuff" on Instagram and Facebook
I swear it is every day some one is commenting or posting about their wraps, greens, oils, beach body, shakes, weight loss pills.
I get it.
I understand the hustle but come on!!!!
I do not believe that you're making a $20,000 bonus this month and eating Ellio's pizza and your big night out is Panera!
So from now on I've decided to delete anyone who only posts about what they are selling!
I rather see your kids, dogs and food posts.


I started my new position at work this week.
I'm still assisting the woman who took over my position.
I feel a little lost because I'm so new at it. There are lots of questions but I can do it!

Plus, getting out at 5pm is pretty awesome. I actually went shopping by myself last night.
I used a gift card and bought myself a new Alex and Ani!

Jonquil: the flower of the wondrous heart. With radiant petals of gold, this flower’s high-vibrating energy is said to attract forest nymphs, bestowing a blessing upon all who appreciate its beauty. Associated with March, the delightful Jonquil promotes self-love. 


Most importantly this week Jack had his clinical appointment.
He did pretty incredible.
I feel so bad for him but know this is our life and he is so well cared for.
His doctors are so happy with how well he is doing and how well his lungs sound.
We made sure we finished our day off after the appointments with tons of fun, dinner, Toys R Us and TCBY.

Happy Friday!!!

Monday, June 1, 2015


Reading...  The Fringe Hours. Well, I'd like to be reading them. The reason I got the book is to help me find time for myself. Clearly, I need it because I got it 3 weeks ago, read 7 pages and now can't find it. It's probably in a toy box some where around here. 

Loving… Sun tea. I've got some on our back deck as I type. I can't wait to toss in some frozen fruit for a citrus treat tonight. 

Wearing… Lots of capris and sun dresses. I got a bunch of Old Navy dresses and I love them. I'm all about the light weight cardigans from Old Navy. I dislike my large arms and like to cover them up as much as possible. 

Eating… I've been all about the salads lately! I hate cooking when I get home at 7:15  (which will end tomorrow, see last post HERE) so we often toss on chicken, steak or shrimp. I always top it with Ken's Italian Dressing. I throw on some fried onions, artichoke hearts, olives and a little cheese! YUM! 

Watching… I started re watching the 3rd season of Longmire on Netflix. I am so excited that Netflix picked up the 4th season! I was pissed when A&E cancelled it last year! I just finished up Revenge. It ended so well! I hate that it's over but I was happy with the way it ended. 

Making… Mac and cheese with broccoli for my little man and prepping steak for grilling. 

Excited About… a bunch of vacation days this summer. 

Looking Forward To… Planning our beach vacation this September, spending some summer nights on our back deck, taking walks with little man and spending some time at our pool. 

Thinking About… All the fun adventures I'd like to take with Jack this summer; the beach, zoo, orchards and anything else he might enjoy! I am so excited! 

Wanting… to spend as much time with Jack. Rekindling some happy moments with my husband. Parenting is tough. Taking time for our relationship has not been easy. Marriage is hard... love, dislike, laughter, annoyance and thats all in one day. I have to always remember love and laughter. It's not always the easiest thing to do and I'm wanting, no needing, to do it. 

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Some Exciting News

So something new and exciting is happening in my little corner of the world. I am happy to report that I am transitioning out of my current position at work. Since returning from work after having Jack I have been unhappy with my job. I don't know if it is my job or if its the idea that I would much rather be at home with my little boy.

A little background on what I do... For the last 8 years I have run 2 programs for a non profit agency. I run a day program for adults with Autism and other developmental disabilities and I also run an after school program for children with developmental disabilities. Our programs have grown more than I ever imagined. I currently have a caseload of 49 individuals with the potential to grow! I'm proud of the growth and the ability to support so many families. 

The problem I have are the long hours away from my family. I don't get home until at least 7:15 each night. I usually have to forego dinner in order to take walks with my family. I always miss Jack's dinner and it's heartbreaking for me. I keep thinking of all the times in the future I may miss because of my current position. 

Recently, my supervisor resigned. Although I am really going to miss her, her guidance and all that she has taught me in the last 7 years I am happy to say her position has been adjusted and I'll be transitioning in part of her current role. 

I will be staying on 4 days a week and I will be working with 31 families in the community. I will no longer be running 2 programs and will be able to flex my schedule according to meetings. I will not longer have to work until 6:30 when both programs end. I'll be able to get home and eat dinner with my family most nights. 

I'm so excited to be able to spend more time with my family. I'm so thankful that my company has give me the opportunity. I'm hoping to grow into this position, assist families all while enjoying mine. I've grown close to the families I've worked with over the last several years. I am lucky I'll be to work out of the same office and see the staff I have supervised over the years and the families I've grown to love. 

It's all about growing and learning. 

Wish me luck as I transition into this new position.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Summer Bucket List

I feel like we just skipped right past spring this year. One day it was snowing and the next it was 73 degrees! We are roasting today. It's 86 degrees and the AC has been on today. It's because of the heat and our allergies are just insane the last few days.

- Visit the Farmer's Market for fresh veggies and fruit.

- Sprinkler play

- Plant flowers

- Go to the Sussex County Fair

- Take Jack to the beach

- Unplug for a full day!!!

- Read to Jack every night

- Teaching Jack to swim

- Berry and Peach picking at Och's Orchard

- Lot's of birthday parties.

- Spend the day at the Warwick Winery

- Dinners on the deck

- Nightly family walks!

- Free movies in the park!

- Take Jack to the zoo

- Take Jack to Van Saun Park for their splash pad

- Hit our fundraising goal for Jack's Cystic Fibrosis, Great Strides Walk or at least get really close!

- Family hikes

- Picnics in the park

- Taking Jack's 18 month photos.

- Get great results at Jack's annual CF testing!

- Do some home improvements around the house,

- Concerts and dinner picnic at the park

- Transition into my new job position...more on that coming soon!

What are your plans for the summer?

Monday, May 11, 2015

Mother's Day Weekend Recap

What an insane weekend we had! I took today off  just so Jack and I could recover from it! I will say Jack got lots of rest on Monday. He slept late and took a nice long nap.

On Friday Brian and I attended the wedding of my sweet friend Lesley. Lesley is one of my great friends. We met about 7 years ago while playing softball. We both were single and supported one another while on line dating. What I love most about her is when I met a guy online (my now husband) I was afraid to go out with him and she pushed me to not cancel. I always like to remind her that she had a small part in getting us together.

Brian and I don't spend a lot of time away from Jack. We've only went on one date since Jack arrived. Probably not the best choice... Any who, it was difficult for us to let loose and have fun for a bit but once the music started and I had plenty of wine we had a nice time!

It was really hard waking up at 4:30 with a screaming baby. I had a really tough time on Saturday morning but we got ourselves ready and we were off to my nephew's 6th birthday party. Jack had a blast! Lots of little ones running around and getting dirty.

BTW, Jack pooped on the potty on Saturday!!!!
He's been watching his cousin potty train for several months and little man picked it up easily!

Sunday morning Brian went to work so this momma didn't get much rest. Jack was up at 7:30. No breakfast in bed for me. Instead I got Jack dressed and we went out to Starbucks and out for bagels. My little man and I ate breakfast on our deck and shared some smiles. In the afternoon when Brian arrived home we went to visit my family to celebrate the rest of the day. We stayed late and I finished my busy, no relaxation Mother's Day with a sleepy baby on my chest along with NY Rangers hockey!

Hope you all had a lovely Mother's Day!

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Handmade Mother's Day Gifts

Yesterday I posted some lovely items for Mother's Day. Today I wanted to share some lovely handmade items. I just adore handmade gifts .They show the thought you put into it as well as the time and effort! They are also budget friendly and who doesn't love all of that?

Over the weekend Jack and I had a good time making the butterfly foot print flower pots. I'll Share those tomorrow.  We also bought a bunch of pretty flowers and we planted together. It was an absolutely perfect afternoon together. We sat on the deck, ate cheese doodles, we crafted and we both smiled. I swear moments like that make being a mommy so extra special. It's what being a mommy is all about.

Are you making a handmade gift this year?

Monday, May 4, 2015

Mother's Day Gift Guide

Mother's Day is right around the corner. I feel like we were just celebrating my first Mother's Day last year. Time certainly flies by with a little one. I'm sure this one will a lot different than last year. I'll be on my toes running this year rather than relaxing like that year. Jack keeps me on my toes constantly. I should probably ask my husband to give me the gift of being on daddy duty all day long. I think I may put my feet up and have a nice glass of white wine as a gift to myself!

We don't do big gifts in our house but if we did these lovely items would certainly be on them.

mother's day

1. Sunglasses- To cover up my lovely circles under my eyes.

2. Pretty Purse- Because some times Jack's puppy back pack doesn't go with everything.

3. TIME- Above all I just want more time with my little man.

4. Stella and Dot Charms- To add to my my charm necklace.

5. Starbucks Gift Cards- Well, because.... Coffee

6. Bubbles Bath- Amazing Grace for a nice relaxing bath. It may take 10 years but I'll be prepared.

7. Pretty Pajama Pants- I just love lounging in my down time. Might as well do it in pretty clothes.

What are some of the items you're treating the moms in your lives this year?

What items are you loving this year.

Come back tomorrow for handmade gifts for mommies!!!